How often are you second guessing yourself?
“The job you do out there in the apparent world is secondary. It’s only a place for you to judge, inquire, and know yourself. Your true job is to appreciate what is; your primary profession is to be clear.” Byron Katie
Being clear about what you do and how you do it, isn’t easy. We tend to live life second guessing ourselves. Spending time in the future worrying about what might happen. Worrying about what others will think about what you do or don’t do.
I’ve spent my whole work life, up until January 2015, worrying and stressing myself so much that I haven’t enjoyed my work – at all. That’s 25 years of worry and stress.
Since I found ‘The Work’ though I’ve spent the last three years turning things around. I started inquiring into my thoughts and beliefs about what others were and weren’t saying about me; what I was and wasn’t doing at work; how my co-workers were treating me.
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At the point of being triggered and getting emotional I would take what I was thinking and put it down on paper. When I got angry, upset, hurt, anxious. worried or confused I captured it all. I would then question it.
I came to see that I was constantly living in my head with my thoughts and feelings all intermingled. It was very burdensome to live this way every day.
Living life differently
Finally, after two years in a workplace that I ‘hated’ because it wasn’t giving me what I needed, after doing a mountain of worksheets and self-inquiry into it, I was able to say to the workplace “Thank you so much for every lesson that you’ve given me, it is now time for me to leave” and I did. I have never before felt so free in my life.
I’ve realised that I can live in the moment, of each day. I can be present in each moment and experience it. This means I am not in the past or the future in my mind anymore. I’m now able to stay in my own business too, which is so freeing.
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I am seeing more clearly each day what my true ‘job’ is.. and that feels more and more like not having a job.
What might it be like if you were fully present in each and every moment, and not emotional?
What might it feel like to be clear about what you need and want from the workplace?
How might you feel if you were to know that you were doing exactly what you needed to be doing each and every moment that you were ‘at work’?